waiting..

Why am i sitting around waiting on a Sunday?
I'm gonna get out and do stuff now..

sweep sweep

There, all the cobwebs should be gone now.

I'm starting a grand adventure tomorrow and I'm looking forward to it despite all the butterflies fluttering in my stomach.

This should also take my mind off some things that have been troubling me in recent weeks.

Time to clear the fuzziness from my brains! :)

this is good.

this is it.

I will lose 2.5kg before my birthday.
Then another 2.5 by July.
I will also take leave in June to do nothing.

Haha.

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's gray and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love!

i want to buy

the samsung rf411 laptop.
I need retail therapy.

hermit

I'm practicing being a hermit.

Work is all that I'm about now. Work and rest after work.
I tire myself out so I don't think of weird stuff.
I sleep after I tire myself out.
Or alternatively, I drink.

Wow. Life is so colourful.

Apt.

Wow, check out the lyrics of the last song I posted.
It totally describes me right now haha.

I am a total dumbass, I ruined my knee again playing badminton.
Hey, if you think about it, I started this blog because of my knee anyway.

Perfect. I should act my age and just go retire or something.

So here I am.

Goldfinger - Superman

So here I am
Doin' everything I can
Holdin' on to what I am
Pretendin' I'm a superman

I'm tryin' to keep
The ground on my feet
It seems the world is fallin' down around me
The nights are long
I'm singin' this song
To try and make the answers more than maybe

And I'm so confused about what to do
Sometimes I wanna throw it all away

So here I am
Growin' older all the time
Lookin' older all the time
Feelin' younger in my mind

And here I am
Doin' everything I can
Holdin' on to what I am
Pretendin' I'm a superman

I'm tryin' to sleep
I lost count of sheep
My mind is racin' faster every minute
What could I do more
Yeah, I'm really not sure
I know I'm runnin' circles but I can't quit

And I'm so confused about what to do
Sometimes I wanna throw it all away

Controllin' everything in sight
Feelin' weak I don't feel right
You're tellin' me I have to change
Tellin' me to act my age
But if all that I can do
Is just sit and watch time go
Then I'll have to say good-bye
Life's too short to watch it fly

So watch it Flyyyyyyyyyy!

So here I am
Growin' older all the time
Lookin' older all the time
Feelin' younger in my mind

And here I am
Doin' everything I can
Holdin' on to what I am
Pretendin' I'm a superman

speculation

It has been bothering me for a week now and I have ignored it largely during the weekdays by swamping myself with work.
Well the weekends are here, it means less "drop-dead tiredness" and more time to allow my own imagination to run amok.

I hate that.

I prefer to know stuff, speculation tires me out and makes me have weird dreams. I need my sleep.

I am done.

It's all so clear now. Thank you for opening my eyes.

I am done.

next up.

It looks good yeah? Somebody stop me!

how sad is this?

My blog is sad. I realise that this is where I pen down my unhappy thoughts to be filed away as records.

Come to think of it, it shouldn't be this way. I should be filing away my happy thoughts and writing my unhappy ones in sand to be washed away by the waves.

Gosh. I'm so silly!

the analogy of muddy waters

if you see a puddle of muddy water.. will you still go ahead and jump in head first?

this is something i wrote as a kid

This is an entry I dug up from a diary I had when I was 12. Funny how things turn out to be.

Dear Diary,

Today I am going to tell you what is important to me. The first is not to fail my examinations as I am very 'famous' in school. I really want to try to change my habit.

I didn't change my habit until I was 26. BUT look, everything's fine now.
As something I've said earlier today, what will be will be. :)

Preserverence.

Many times I have almost given up.
I've almost thrown in the towel for what I consider insane work hours and workload.

This is now all worth it.

I finally got a sign today that things are moving forward.
I have not let all the late nights go in vain, I have not let myself down by giving up so much to try to excel in work.

Does that sound emo? Haha, I don't know, I'm actually ecstatic and yet filled with fear. I wonder what the new role will bring me in terms of challenges.
I question myself if I have learnt enough to pick up this new role.

Well, that ball is already out of the park now.

I just have to do it.

Simple as that.

Everyone wants happiness and nobody wants pain, but you can't have a rainbow, without a little rain.

resolutions

my 2011 resolution was to have work-life balance.
can't believe I've already broken it :P

Out of sight, out of mind.

I have to stick to this for my own good.

How was your Christmas for you?

I hope it was great.
Mine wasn't bad too.

:)

Secrets.

just wanted to share.

my two hamsters are named "fat shit" and "that irritating one".

now, ain't that a hoot?

a prize?

Yesterday, I won my first award ever since primary school.
I won the "Workaholic" award at my company's Christmas Party.

Is that a good thing? I don't even know.

mind control, out of boredom.

i have mind control, i made you read this.

而我知道放开手, 但不知道怎么忘掉。

First X'mas Card EVER

Received my first ever Christmas card.

Adorable and sweet as hell. It's going up on my wall.

THANKS!

A Quote

A colleague of mine put this up on Facebook.

Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger men & women. Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers. Pray for powers equal to your tasks ~ Phillip Brooks.

My interpretation of it, you should always challenge yourself for it is the only way to progress. Being mediocre just doesn't cut it anymore.

drunken stupor

It's Monday and I think I have gotten out of this drunken stupor that I was in.

Zouk on Saturday was horrendous.
OK, perhaps epic in terms of the amount I drank, but horrendous is the fact that I don't know WTF happened.

It's like I lost several hours of my life in that drunken stupor and it scared the shit out of me.

I have always been proud of the fact that I could drink and dared to drink.
The fact now is, I dared to drink, but I can't drink.

Well I have been out of the game for too long, its time to buck up or I will definitely make a fool out of myself again.

friday night drinks

It's Friday and I'm about to go out for drinks.

I guess I really need this.